Just Alice

With a new aura it appears to Alice that she's transitioning from a child and building herself for the woman she wants to become. Its a good thing for sure but scary non the less.She carries herself differently she is turning in to a new her. A more changed woman. An Alice who is beyond who she was when she entered wonderland. Yet  she still building and adding to who she want to be. Its exciting and  scary all at the same time. Yet it intriguing that even after so much change has took hold of her she is still 'just Alice'.

My name was Alice

"Alice laughed. 'There's no use trying,' she said. 'One can't believe impossible things.' As the seasons changed this year i found myself "Curiouser and curiouser."  Questions of Why and why not seemed fit for my last few years directions from anyone seemed useless.   "Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?" Although I have not found 'which way' I want to go I have found the first direction to take me there.I believe its left. Alice went through so many changes in 'Wonderland' waking up one day and by the afternoon not knowing her name. "I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then" Wow! Puberty was great to Alice "Everything is funny, if you can laugh at it." I believe that I have improved my way of speech."I don't think..." then you shouldn't talk, said the Hatter." Believing in the unseen is hard but believing in myself is even harder. through kind words and love I can get there."Do you know, I always thought unicorns were fabulous monsters, too? I never saw one alive before!"
Well, now that we have seen each other," said the unicorn, "if you'll believe in me, I'll believe in you." I had been poisoned with to much poison it had changed me for something i was not. "If you drink much from a bottle marked 'poison' it is certain to disagree with you sooner or later." I had lost who I was in a confusion much greater then myself even. "You used to be much more..."muchier." You've lost your muchness." Sometimes things you dream 'Big' fall. Maybe sometimes for the worst and sometimes for the better. Love really is not love if you don't love them or yourself for that matter. "He was part of my dream, of course -- but then I was part of his dream, too."It was that way in the beginning but in the end (wich i had not relised untill later) was the fear i felt. "I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir,' said Alice, 'Because I'm not myself you see." Family, well family is a whole other story. For the most of the time it is a love that is deep but the other hald well..."Off with their heads!"I believe that "stuff and nonsense" is how my family works together. It great. Alice's cat is always taking things the wrong way "I said you LOOKED like an egg, Sir. And some eggs are very pretty, you know." Sometimes the cat is ridiculous in her ideas. "Well, then,' the Cat went on, 'you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased. Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad." Alice has learned so much this year her views have changed and she is alive more now then ever. The 'poison' in her has left and now a small light it shines she believes in more then just the impossible."Sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."you see  the  sometimes the most logical answer is the one the lest obvious."You could not see a cloud, because No cloud was in the sky: No birds were flying overhead -- There were no birds to fly. "  Alice has changed and she understood that "I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then"